Maybe ISSA Healing?

🌻Every morning I wake up, my first thoughts are with you & God. 3 years later and I still try to make sense out of it. Maybe, just maybe if I listen a little harder or sleep a little deeper that I will be able to hear the cane metal click from your soft walks or the dragged out creaking the bathroom door makes as you delicately shut it. Maybe, just maybe if I lay still a little longer or close my eyes to mediate a little tighter I will be able to hear the slight clearing of your voice to get out a simple "Hello". That maybe if I had the strength I could get up to get you a glass of water and make you a quick breakfast to get me another 30 mins of shut eye. MAYBE.

🌻Maybe, just maybe. This could be another day, where my focus is on you & not myself. That you are clean, hair done, and dressed. That you are fed, filled with liquids, and have your meds. That you are comfortable, warm, and had rest. Maybe, today won't be too hard & you don't have to ask if I'm tired and insist that I take a nap so you can have your Shay back. MAYBE.

🌻Maybe, I could finish rushing my life to make sure you were apart of it. That, just maybe death would be so far and the memories could flow, just to hear you were proud and tell me stand strong. Maybe, if I zone out enough I could hear one of your "old" sayings and hear you hum your favorite hymns. MAYBE!

🌻Maybe, if I sit in the dark a little longer and close my eyes full of tears I would be able to see you "ow" and "aw" over every meal with a special wink for my sweet potato pies. That you insisted having after your dramatic saying "I'm so full, I could burst." Just MAYBE. If I seen you one more time I would be ok. If I could get some closure, ask for a last hug, and even question you about how you and grandpa feel in love. Maybe, I won't have to wait long because I know you are resting peacefully above.

(Thank You Jesus!🙏🏾)

Let us pray:

Father, I don't know how I will get through this but I ask for Your guidance. That You know my pain and how I cope, You know my heart and how I got through. I pray that today I am able to give someone strength and peace because that's exactly what You have given me. I pray that the unconditional love and light you have given me, oozes out of my pores and lands upon Your people. I pray that you come forth even more as El Mauz (God my strength), El Shama (God who hears), Jehovah Rapha (The Lord who heals), and Jehovah Shalom (the Lord of peace). My whole heart is surrendered to You for Your purpose, use me. Though this will hurt, use me. Though my eyes are full of tears and my heartaches, use me. There is nothing I want more but to be used for Your glory. Father, I love you more then anything and love your people just as You would. Thank You for this opportunity. May we all be at peace at the end of this read. You get all the glory. Amen 🙏🏾.

Talking to Heaven: 

I wanted to dedicate my blog to you, Mrs. Bessie. I want everything that I feel important to have light shined on it and you are the light itself. You are the foundation, creator, and force in itself. You didn't show love you are love. You didn't take no mess or played with it. You are elegance, class, and feminine a true definition of a woman. God fearing, motivational, and the best of spirits, You were unmatched when it came to caring for all. Nothing got past you and for that I dedicated a piece of my life to you. Thank you for being a grandmother. Thank you for being you and continuously showing love. 

In 2014, I lost my grandmother. I was devastated, young 22 year old that couldn't wrap her finger around losing someone close. Someone so influential and legendary, just gone with no true explanation than old age and a failing heart. Decisions had to be made, her body could no longer hold the pain she was feeling and she didn't deserve long suffering due to our selfish ability to just want her around. For long over 70 years, her and my grandfather built a foundation that celebrated love and family, though I am extremely positive that their was family drama it was never on display as an act of covering up but act of respect for the royalty of matriarch and patriarch that reflected off of them. 

I guess, this blog is a reflection of Gods glory to place a praying woman as the head of household. A woman that lost her husband 13 years before she passed and never felt the need to remarry but wore her wedding ring until it got too big and placed it on her necklace closer to her heart. A true Proverbs 31 woman, with a spirit of Mary from Bethany. I wanted to be just like her, I want to be just like her. That even on her death bed, she still worshipped Christ until her last breath. Though, she was a beautiful example of God's favor, I still didn't understand. It took years for me not to be angry and made it hard for me to look at her picture. People didn't understand the ability to hold on nor cared about the level my of hurt. Nobody wanted to talk about it. I had nobody, I had nobody....

I 

HAD

NOBODY😭🙈😔😞

Nobody let me cry on their shoulder, so I took matters into my own hands. I hated the world and I was in so much pain. Have you ever been truly heart broken? The kind of heartache that hurts so bad it feels like a heart attack. I spent weeks in darkness and no one noticed. I cried for weeks but no one cared. I was in so much pain, I knew 2014 was my last year here on Earth and I became at peace with that. The night I was ready to give up was the night I had an encounter with Christ (so much more to the story). The next day I woke up in newness, the air was fresh, I had no desire to drink, I had no pain, all I wanted to do was get dressed and enjoy my day. I was happy? How? I literally just wanted to die hours before. I looked in the mirror and I looked new, tears immediately erupted from me. How could this be? Who could this be? 

The Bible says in Psalms 34:18 "The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit". Did God really have so much use for me that my life was valuable enough to save? Was I like King David in Psalms 56:8 "Record my misery; list my tears on your scroll are they not in your record" ” Was God so aware of me that He even collected my tears? 

From that day forward, I had to understand God is involved and aware of our pain, our joys, our failures, and our accomplishments. I understood that He truly was El Roi (God who sees all), He was my connector and source for all of my needs.

Sis, here are 4 ways to overcome heartache:

1. Recognize the pain and understand it is OK to hurt. We all go through hurt but it's not about the pain you endure, it's about how knowledgeable you are about it and overcoming it.

2. Seek the Healer. Seek God as your healer! Just like you tell a doctor your symptoms, tell God how much you were wounded and need His healing touch. He will hear the cries of the broken. God the Father wants to reach down, take your hand, and walk you through your pain. It may take weeks. For many of us it will take years, perhaps even a lifetime to close the wounds of our hearts completely. God will spend as much time and as many years as necessary to help you through it. He wants to gently apply the daily ointment of His Holy Spirit to your heart until your heart is healed. I know this because He has done it with me. When I am down, He lifts me up in many different ways. He is there for me to cry on His shoulder, so to speak, and then sends His encouraging Spirit to get me back up and going again.

3. Reach out to others. My walk has been dedicated to others to not make them feel as I once felt, alone. I know that isolation hurt, to want so bad to have someone around to just listen but want so bad not to be a burden. It's OK to talk it out with someone, swap stories, hug, it's all needed and apart of the healing process. Holding your feelings in only become worse and builds up to a breaking point. 

4. Understand HEALING takes time!!! Sister, take as much time as you need. It's YOUR hurt, you have to deal with it, don't let anyone make you feel that your hurt isn't important. Ignore everyone's ability to make you feel like it's been days, weeks, or years and you are supposed to be over it. Don't allow anymore to control how you heal, it's your pain, as long as you can take it to God you are in the healing process and I am proud of you. Always remember Psalms 147:3 says "He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds." Trust His Word!

So I close this out in complete dedication to My grandmother Bessie Elise Cobb Reese, Happy 100th Birthday my beautiful redhead Queen. May you continue to rest in peace and be my angel. May you continue to personally watch after me and enjoy Heaven with grandpa. May your legacy continue to reside in us as we live daily. May you always be an example for generations to come. May we live out your graciousness and be held to the womanly standards you have set. I love you to Heaven and back.

Today mediate on Psalms 34:15, Psalms 147:3 , Psalms 56:8 & pray over your healing
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Not a Valentine Blog: Being Love Cautious

Welcome BACK Queens!

Excuse me for my thoughts have been all over the place since Saturday but I didn't want to abandon my commitment to the Post so let us pray:

"My amazing, mighty, and loving Heavenly Father. At this moment, I need You like more than ever. I need Your spirit to surround me and Your presence to dwell at this very moment. As I go forward, Lord I speak high peace, a clear mind, and some kind of release from the anointing You have gifted me with. Lord I pray that someone is touched by what You have directed me to say and that it can encourage the ones they share it with. Thank You for Your continuous love, grace, and mercy. Thank You for Your heart and patience with us. Father, Thank You for being perfect for us and  loving us despite the lack of loving ourselves. We love you more than anything, may you continue to bless us especially in our time of need. May we rest in Your presence. Amen."

It's midnight and I am up getting my last minutes thoughts together for this blog. I am going to be completely honest I didn't want to do it! I didn't want to lose sleep, dedicate my time, or even reread a bunch of times. I didn't want to give the energy but I had to rebuke that demon that tried to convince me that I wasn't in the "mood" because I love writing more than anything!! This love dates all the way back when I was a young girl. I don't know what it is about using my imagination and expanding upon it, losing myself in words, and creating stories. Now I get to do it for the Lord, I think I found my dream job(😍). 

Writing for the Lord was something that I could have never imagined doing. I started this blog back in 2011-2012 because I wanted to express myself. I knew I was becoming stressed and angry but didn't know what to do with the emotions, so I started this blog. I had remembered writing was the only thing that kept me calm since I could remember. It was never really about my issues, problems, or things I was going through. I just really love to lose myself in my thoughts and challenge myself to think beyond just telling a simple story but creating a vision that people could lose themselves in. Though, I didn't want anyone to read the blog because I imagined myself going deep and it being just for me. I wanted to talk my mess, cry, be happy, be completely angry but honest and just let it all out but leave it behind. I knew that my writing was deeper than that though, I knew it was my purpose, the start of something bigger than myself.

I found myself constantly wondering how to infuse my love and determining my purpose. They say go back to the basics, tap into your talents, and allow God to reveal to you what your purpose is. I sat up night after night seeking God to reveal to me how I could serve Him with my talents, writing is all I thought about. Now that I am becoming rooted in Him and getting my mind focused on only the things that mattered. I wanted my writing to glorify His name and to be a reflection of His grace in my life. Though, I do believe God will continue to reveal more of my purpose as I grow within Him. I know this is a start to something greater. As I mentioned in my previous post, God has a purpose for all of us. (Exodus 9:16)

The best thing is I can sit here confidently and pour my heart out. Not for anything more but loving on the Lord. This love has brought me into new levels of self-love. Knowing that God's purpose is perfect and just for me. That through my purpose He reveals who I am and who He wants me to be. This self-love deepens for me daily and allows me to not just accept what people want to give me but demanding what I deserve. I use to think that it was normal to settle. That individuals didn't go ALL the way out for the people they love. I know better now. I know that God love sets the standard and anyone that loves Him will love His people as He does. Mark 12:30-31 states "And you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength. This is the first commandment. And the second like it, is this: You shall love your neighbor as yourself. There is no other commandment greater than these"

The Word clearly states that there is nothing greater than the love that we give Him and the people around us. Romans 13:10 says to us that love doesn't harm and throughout 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 tells us exactly what love is and anything outside of that is probably not love. We have to become extremely cautious about the love we give God and each other. I believe focusing on God, building up self love and working within our purpose are key ingredients to the love we pour into the world. Sis, how much do you love yourself? God?

I am not here to tell you what to do and how to do it and maybe this is a stem from Valentine's Day or a rant about so much self damage on social media (in a nice way, of course) but I know that God offers something supernatural and unexplainable. A peace, love, and healing that is mind blowing. Have you tried Him? Like, truly tried Him and His ways?  *ques worship music, for altar call* (Yes, I do play too much🙈 but seriously)

God offers a high anointing something you can't deny and unchanging. You must truly try Him in order to get what He has to offer. I pray that lives are being changed daily and that people are seeing the true grace of God. I pray that purposes within the Kingdom are getting sought after and being revealed. I pray love from God, self love and neighbor love are heighten and become exposed especially for the ones that don't think it exist. May we all be blessed through our separate walks and may our lifestyles be for the glory of the Lord. May we all become love cautious and hold hearts delicately as the Lord holds ours. Be blessed children of God. May His love continue to be the building blocks for the only kind of love that matters.

Today meditate on Exodus 9:16 , Mark 12:30-31, Romans 13:10, & 1 Corinthians 13:4-8
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What's Coming is Going to Stretch You

My Queens, welcome back!!!

Let us pray:

My Lord, my Father, and King. You have been a healer in more ways then I can count and I want to thank you. Thank you for allowing me to be a vessel at Your hands, a light from what You give, and obedient at Your feet. As I go forth with this blog, I asked that You speak directly through me that my words are no longer mine, but they become yours and exactly what You want me to say. Thank you for being You and loving us despite who we are. Thank you for being the source and everything we need especially at our time of need. I can't say it enough, we can't do it enough, so Thank You. We love you so much!! Amen.

As I sit in front of my window, as if it is my desk, with a hot cup of green tea infused with lime juice. I experienced such a peace from the rain dripping off of the tree on to the ground wondering if the snow is actually melting. I got an urge to touch it, just to see if my theory was right. Mostly to see if the weather was eligible to ride my bike. Immediately I knew it was not, cold and rainy is a disaster for ice. I didn't want any parts of enjoying an amazing bike right, but it being cut short due to the no traction of my thin tires meeting ice, separating me from my bike onto the ground. YEP, I will do A LOT of things but falling off my bike is NOT one. I am too old for that. (😆😂😆😖)
Look at this distraction, I rebuke the spirit of blogging for no reason, and rise up the spirit of telling the world about God. Lol!!! After I got over the distraction, I wanted to hear a word which in my fasting life is a substitution of T.V. and watching my pointless shows. Youtube always speaks well to me.

I turn on a sermon by one of my favorite women in ministry. The beautiful Sarah Jakes Robert, where she referenced Joshua 8  and talked about Gods stretching ability to get us out of normality and into His promise. God spoke to me and said "this is it". I never knew I could be so inspired by a message given. I know that they are all meant to make you have a feeling, make you feel an emotion or get you encouraged and eager to press into your walk. This word got me fired up. As I listened harder, I had a heavy thought back to my past and the things I use to do. Through these memories God was able to reveal to me that He  has always had a higher purpose for my life. I realized that moving away from my old ways was the stretching and pulling God needed to call me into an uncomfortable state that would allow me to sit at His feet weekly for the purpose of my perspective. That through my words led by Him, all people  WILL draw closer to Him.

Before, I started my blog I debated so much about it. "Lord, why me?, What do I have to say?, who will listen to me?, what do I even know about You? is it enough?" Through all this doubt in myself I had to remembered Psalms 16:11 "You will show me the path of life; In Your presences is fullness of joy; At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore." God was showing me, my path. I don't care if I get any recognition for it. I just want God to get all the glory and if someone happens to read, I hope my perspective, way of writing, and ability to soak in the Spirit while doing it will save lives. Though, for this, for God's glory, I had to be stretched beyond my wildest capacity and still is being stretch beyond that.

Sis!!, have you allowed God to stretch you beyond your understanding? Have you pressed into all things of God? Has He revealed to you how you can glorify His Kingdom?

As we begin our Christian journeys, we submit ourselves unto Christ, He tells us in Exodus 9:16 "But indeed for this purpose I have raised you up, that I may show My power in you, and that My name may be declared in all earth". The Lord has a purpose for all of us but it is up to us to allow Him to stretch us beyond our common abilities to understand what is expected from us when it comes to His kingdom. Before I even knew who God was, I remember my grandma asked me a question like "where do you see yourself?" Probably wasn't that simple but I gave a basic answer like "Grandma, I just want to be happy" She stopped me dead in my tracks and made sure I understood that I needed to start praying over what God wanted because what He wanted was way beyond the simplicity of my happiness and anything my mind could fixate on. Like she said "What God wants is bigger then you, start praying over the preparation of your bigger". Though I didn't have a relationship, my grandmother made me understand the power of God. From that day forward I prayed over my preparation and for God to shift me into more. It wasn't right away but my stretching started, I was 15 years old.

I know I am not the only one that wants more from God. I know I can't be that only one that has this burning fire inside of me that makes me want to just break out and speak of all things that is God. I know I am not the only one extremely hungry, thirsty, and pressed for God and His presences. During Mrs. Robert sermon, she spoke on Joshua and how God gave him a promise but not only was his promise solidify, God promised that his preparation for His promise will be installed within him as well. Also, God wanted to make sure that His mind was stretched. Especially after the defeat Joshua had endured right before being sent to another battle. (Joshua 8:1)

Sis, do you believe our Mighty, Loving God for who He is? Do you take Him at His word and trust Him for everything He said was true? Would You trust Him even if He sent you into a losing battle?

The stretching process is not easy but it's a MUST. God is revealing to us that our battles, situations, and testimonies are what we need in order to get everything He promised to us. That this is getting us ready for the plethora of blessings that is going to pour out of heaven. God wants your limits to be stretched passed limitations and to always have the mindset to access where we are going so once we are brought into it, we will know what to do with it.

We have to become comfortable with God's word and know that He takes what we have in our hand and gives us what we need in the mist of an ambush or our hard times. Sis, stop focusing on what's coming after you or who is trying to take you out but focus on what He said He will give you. It's victory in that. Know the fight doesn't end at the victory, in the mist of the ambush, there is another ambush happening that is going to place you where you need to be and make way for the places that you are suppose to go. God has your back, TRUST HIM!!

Once we realize that the stretch is given to us from the Most High and it isn't just something God uses to be mean but to mold, chains begin to break. The spirit of fear, is no more and we move beyond any level of fear that was once controlling us. Allow your life to be a testimony of the goodness of God by just simply stretching yourself passed everything that has a stronghold on you. Know that what's coming is going to stretch you!

May you all be blessed!! I pray that God continues or starts seasons of heavy stretching, where we are brought to our knees in surrender because the Kingdom will look mighty fine when we have been stretched and Gods preparation needs are met. 

May God recieve all the glory.

Today mediate on Joshua 8, Exodus 9:16 , Psalms 16:11 & pray over your process
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Inspired by a sermon given by Sarah Jakes Robert "Stretched to capacity"

Walking Away from Self-Prejudice and into Yourself

To My Lovely Kings & Queens

Let us pray: 

"Heavenly Father, Our King, Our Provider, Our Love and whole heart. As You placed the subject on my heart, I thank You for allowing the Holy Spirit to consume me and reach Your people. As I go forth, I pray that I only give my story but Your light and Spirit is heightened in me. While I personally, become decreased and You increased. That this posted is what You want, for Your glory, gospel, and Kingdom. Tear us away from anything that is not of You and allow these words to be building blocks for Christians seeking Your Kingdom wholeheartedly. Allow this to be a passage for Your children in trouble and don't know where to start when it comes to building a relationship with You. Allow me to be a true reflection, vessel, and Light for You onto others. Allow us to become bold, beautiful, and completely brave when it comes to all things of You. Father, we love You so much. Thank You for not giving Your heart in pieces and always being available for us. Thank You for not hiding Yourself just to tease us but being so faithful though we are unworthy. Thank You for being pure, teach us how to be just like You. So much less of ourselves. Amen"   

Y'all I have dilmas daily,(LITERALLY!!) I find myself labeling  myself according to how I feel on that day or by a situation that I had encountered. Most of the time, I am a baddie (😭), truly super beautiful, glowing skin, extremely goofy, smart, and I absolutely LOVE fashion so I would like to think I keep myself up (great qualities right?...yes I am single lol). This is literally 90-95% (<---unrealistic percentages) of the time and no! I am not conceited (😏), just very confident...I know what I deserve. Though other times, I get lost in the sauce, thinking that I am lacking, unworthy, or even less than on certain days. Terrible right? I would like to say that a lot of us can relate or is it just me? Am I the only one that seems to get defeated when it comes to certain things or situations like rejection? Am I the only one that battles with self- prejudices and the dangers it brings into my life?

Today, I want to challenge you sis on three things. The way you see God, the way you see yourself, and the way you see others. Some may look at my last questions and say I doubt myself and God's ability a lot. I would agree, when I first started my walk it was cute. I had an encounter with God and He lead me to never want to leave His presences. It felt that good, I was that free, and I had immediately fell in love with Christ. I didn't trust Him though! Save the dramatic grasps, we are being real and getting down to the point. I loved Him, didn't trust Him but would never be the same without Him. I was so content with that, until I learned that my life wouldn't gain the proper shift without my full dependency on my Father. This stage is where I learned that my "doubt" in God was more of self-prejudice or my opinion about myself and I didn't even have knowledge of who I was. Now follow me, because sis I am here to help you walk away from that, right into who you are ordained to be.

Prejudice is defined as an opinion you have about something or someone that is formed without knowledge. So I would say basically, a hater. When you speak down about yourself or have these preconceived thoughts about who you are or who you are supposed to be without knowing who you are in Christ says a lot about you and where you are in your walk. See so often, we carry these extremely heavy weights of titles, situations, and issues we have gained from this world. Things that were never ordained by God but we hold on praying that we become "blessed" from enduring things that was never called onto us. Meanwhile, God is continuously  giving plenty of signs to let go. Question: How can you have thoughts about yourself without opening your bible to know and fully understand what God, your Creator, says about you? 
For  Ephesians 1:7 , says " In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of his grace." Sis, you have been saved from your past, why haven't you walked into your present?
Sis, this self-prejudice must be cut loose!!

I understand we have doubt. To have doubt or to be doubtful in yourself is to feel uncertain or to have fear. I have noticed this is normal when starting or being in your Christian walk. Doubt in yourself can be good, because it is a understanding that our trust in God has to supercede and overshadow what we can do as individuals. Proverbs 3:5, tells us to trust God and to not lean onto our own understanding. Trusting God more than doubt in ourselves is a key to going forth in God's shift for us. Having self-prejudice though, is a clear indication that you don't trust God and what He says about you. You must see Him as a liar, which damages the way you see His people. This ultimately places you in sin and completely out of His will. 

Sis, I know you can't help it. Especially, when so many things and people in this world want to believe God isn't so big and mighty. This is why as women and men of God, we MUST use God's word as our anchor and have faith. We must understand that God has no negative thought about who we are, even when we sin and allow our flesh to overshadow our soul and the Holy Spirit He sends us. We must make a very cautious decision to focus on the Lord at all times and believe the Lord no matter what! Know that God has already named you and the devil wants to affect that by giving you thoughts and emotions about yourself before you can fully understand who you are in Christ. 

WE MUST OPEN OUR BIBLES!! 

I dare you, on today, to see yourself how God sees you. Self-prejudice is extremely dangerous because if you can believe a lie about yourself, imagine what the devil can make you believe about God and His people. Believing in lies is believing in the devil's truth. These lies stop you from walking into your destiny and hinders your ability to hear from God and the promises He wants you to recieve. Let go of the fears of the world, for these fears come when we forget God is with us. God wants you to know that you are untouchable, we must live like people of faith and develop an awareness that knows you are never alone. 
(Isaiah 41:10 )
Understand that what's impossible with man is possible with God. 

I challenge you to focus on Jesus for faith and strength. Self focus will allow you to see your flaws but will also allow you to see why God chose you. The world needs you to be you! For no one benefits when you are not who you are called to be. Believe what God says about you. Fill yourself with the Word and believe the best about yourself, God, and His people. Self-prejudice has to be rejected in order for us to be in God's will. Know when God speaks He changes the perspectives of yourself.  

May you all be blessed!! I pray that self-prejudice and the dangers are no longer an issue. That we are able to rise above all things to see and recieve the glory of God while we are able to pick up our cross and truly submit to His ways. I pray that the way God sees us is enough and our hearts can fully be consume with proper teaching to cleanse anything self-prejudice brings. 

May God recieve all the glory.

Today mediate on Jeremiah 29:11, Proverbs 3:5, Isaiah 41:10 & Numbers 13:27-33
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Giving Myself Away: I Didn't Know

My lovely Queens starting off the New Year, I thought it will be very important that it begins with just giving our Heavenly Father the praise He deserves. For He does so many amazing things that we just can't simply thank Him enough for. Breaking us from alcoholism, drugs, sex, lying, gossiping, and other sins alone is greater than I can ever imagine. He kept us so we can be in full surrender to His will. So let us pray.

"Father, I just want to take the time to acknowledge the goodness and mercy You have granted us a great privilege to have and follows behind us everywhere we go. Thank You for breaking us from things that were holding us hostage, for these things made us fall short of Your glory. Thank You for a daily supernatural renewal of our minds, strength, faith and the trust we have in You. Thank You for being so loving and faithful especially the times we don't deserve it. Father, we love you for being the Creator and knowing your children so well . Thank You for giving us understanding and discernment spirits  to know what we need in the seasons you are taking us through. Father, as we continue to walk with you I ask that You continue to rise all of Your children up and make them bold servants within Your Kingdom. We love you so much! Amen."

   

Sis, I know y'all like "BreShay opening up deep today!" I can't help it. When I think about the goodness of Jesus it makes me want to dance (breaks out in a baptist fit praise break 😂). Though seriously, the surrender of myself onto Christ was the greatest thing I could have ever done. It's like the release of your damaged soul to only be replace with a brand new one. Holding on to the old only clouds your judgement and keeps you away from understanding the FULL potential of receiving a new, more organized, and a prettier soul. Let me tell my brief story.

On my fourteenth birthday, my mother gifted me with gold earrings. I was obsessed!! I had been asking for them for forever and I had finally got them. I was so excited, finally a teenager and no longer the baby. I had officially entered into womanhood and was patiently waiting this menstrual cycle to arrive everybody was talking about (didn't get my until a cold day when I was 16 and quickly knew Mother Nature could have kept it but I finally got it...lol). As I opened the gift and screamed in excitement, a seriousness fell over my mother's face. She immediately called down my excitement and made me focus on what was about to be said. I got serious but concern, she spoke "Shay, you have just entered into womanhood. There are two things you should know. You will get your period, which means you can get pregnant now and I can no longer hold the burden of the relationship you have with God. It's time for you to start your own." I must have looked scared because she quickly followed her words by saying "I will still pray for you. ALWAYS! I am your mother I was always do that but it's no longer my duty to hold the burden of your relationship with God." Two bombs were dropped into my lap that day. I wasn't having sex so getting pregnant wasn't a concern of mine. These were things I knew nothing about though. I became extremely terrified, yet had so many questions. Who was God? How do I make a relationship with Him? Can I seek Him on Earth? What was I was supposed to do? Should I just pray? How do I pray?

I remembered in church they said "fear the Lord", so that's exactly what I did. I was so scared I didn't do anything but pray. Things took a drastic change and long story, extremely short. In my eyes, God couldn't have been real. There was no mercy on my environment and too many bad things were happening but I was never going to give up on God, I "feared" Him. So I started praying more and harder. The older I got the more I realized that all of what I did or didn't do was out of being scared. I decided to have a "talk" with God to release me from His hold. I was so young and extremely naive, but I didn't want to be held captive to this salvation people spoke of.

When I decided that I was going to do it my way. I talked to God about it. When I was finished it was like a huge weight was lifted off of my shoulder. I no longer felt the burden to be holy.  For Proverbs 3: 6 says "In all your ways acknowledge Him. And He shall direct your paths." So this had to be God setting me up to be what I wanted instead of what He desired. Obviously, I rationalize my wrong doings though I wasn't church grown, so a lot of what I did I never considered it be sin because I didn't know what it was. I was sinning but little did I know God's presence was so thick around me that I NEVER stop to realize from that time until I gave myself back to Him. He had blocked everything that could have greatly shifted my life or killed me. A long line of generational curses and activity that I did just because it was what everyone was doing. All these things had taken control over who I was. This had to be who God called me to be. For He loves us regardless right?

For years, I ignored the tug on my heart. I ignored the emptiness I felt. I ignored my breakdowns for no reason and thought it was all normal. Me ignoring these things only drove me deeper into my own dark pit. I didn't know how to pull myself out of confusion, uncertainty, and depression. I didn't know the goodness and peace that our Heavenly Father gave. I didn't know what an encounter what Jesus meant until I was 22 and completely broken. I didn't know Jesus, I didn't know I needed Him, I didn't know how to call and access Him, I DIDN'T KNOW!

Now I know, Jesus died so we could understand our full potential. Jesus died so we could have a friend in our time of confused days and tearful nights. He died to make sure God's children was taken care of and understood their full potential. So not surrendering is an act of selfishness and a slap in Jesus face while implying that He died for no reason. Not surrendering to God keeps you away from excelling to your full potential in Christ while limiting your quality of life and denying the world your purposeful destiny.

I don't know about you but the light God has rising up in me is too powerful for me to dim. I just can't turn off my light and turn back to my old ways. God light shines right through me and I want my anointing. So sis, we are here for the same reason right? You want to receive the anointing God has ordained into you life? Heart check!! Sis, what's stopping you from cutting off bad habits and breaking generational curses? What's stopping you from giving your heartache and Christian pain to God to renew your soul? What's stopping you from falling deeply in love with your Father that has never turn His back on you? WHAT'S STOPPING YOU?! God wants those barriers to be broken and His light to heighten in you. He wants the glory for the holy life that He will bring you to, but you have to surrender and submit to His will.

I pray that this is the start for someone to seek Jesus and trust God more. I pray that this is confirmation that giving yourself away to Christ is the right thing to do, I pray that strength grows and our faith in Him becomes stronger. I pray that the stigmas we and other people place on who we think we are become broken and we rest in who God ordered us to be. I pray that God's light ALWAYS shines through us and becomes brighter the deeper we go. I pray for all my sisters and brothers wholeness and the fight we go into everyday as Christians.  

As I start off the New Year and increase on the The Lovely Post, I want to Thank You all for showing up. I pray that someone is touched by my words and that you can refer it to someone who can also benefit from where I have been and the things God has brought me through. As we embark on this years journey together and personally, I pray that we can become bold in sharing our stories. For the truth of our lives will set us all free.  Giving yourself away and surrendering to God is the ultimate beautiful gesture. It is our tunnel to salvation and a key to receiving what we ask from God. Me not knowing how important having and maintaining a relationship with God is nothing I would wish on my worse enemy. It was a time of true deepness and depression, where it is completely terrifying to be so lost and just to think where I would be now. I find it more important to rejoice in where I am now, GLORY TO GOD!! May we all rejoice in the now!!

May you all be blessed and I pray that giving yourself away becomes easier. Don't let not knowing be the reason you fall short of God's glory and where He is trying to take you!! 

Today mediate on Jeremiah 29:11, Proverbs 3:6, Romans 6:22 & John 8:36
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The 2017 Return...Excited?

Hello Lovelies!!!

This week I will be back with blogs....EVERY WEEK!!! Yes!!! EVERY WEEK!!!! 

On Wednesdays!!!😎

I wanted to take some time at the top of the year to consider, pray, and fast on the direction I wanted to go with my blog and God has spoken!!!

2017 is the year of just going and moving. I AM HERE FOR IT!! 

Things to look forward to this year in the Lovely Post:

• Guest bloggers
• Openness on my life and things I am going through
• Stories
• Things I am working on within God's kingdom
• My journey within the millennial church 
• Challenges
• & so much more.

I am extremely excited for all that God is doing and I pray that my words are a blessing and reach the hearts that desires to hear from God. 

May you all be blessed and hope that you are excited as I am.
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Deciding Not To Quit

Here it is, the last couple of weeks in December and I am excited for it.

2016 was, a lack of for better terms, HELL! It beat me to my core until I was sick. I spent days on my knees, up late in the midnight hours crying, mind raced a mile a minute DAILY and on top of that I lost EVERYTHING!! Not a sweet cute, oh I have to get my life together everything but EVERYTHING!

For me though, it is NEVER about material things. I understand and will always understand that material things come and go. I have always been blessed with a level of high discernment when it comes to understanding certain aspects of life, especially when they involve knowing the value of "things". I value life more than anything, I use to read a lot of urban fiction where there was drug dealing and shootings which allowed me to understand that losing someone isn't easy. Due to my ability to read and be very empathic, I thought it would get me ready for when I had to experience death. I learned quickly, IT DID NOT!! I still have to deal with the reality of mourning and not seeing someone I use to see all the time. This gives me an advantage in my walk. I got to understanding that life eventually ends and we have to go through the "motions" in order to get through it. I thought for a long time,I had to be "strong", I had to put on this "face" that everything is fine, and that it's just the motions. 2016 taught me that being broken before the Lord is what makes us strong. That the only way to be strong is to be weak, and the only way to be weak is to let the motions happen. I've learned that only through the process of weakness and prayer, strength comes. This births a testimony that eventually helps someone who is watching you closely to see what God is doing upon your life. I became satisfied, they become healed.

I value family (which includes my friends). My family is my life!!!! Wanting to be so much like them but being so different as well. Inheriting a lot of characteristics but also branching off and allowing God to work on me. A lot of people call me unique. God has been revealing just how unique I am. When I wanted to be like everyone else and "fit in" nothing went well for me. Being by myself, experiencing who I am, staying away from influences, and truly walking where God leads me brings me joy. I HAVE SO MUCH JOY!!! This joy is comes from my family and everything they are broken or fixed, good or bad, my family is prideful, strong, and rooted to everything we know. I am PROUD!!

I value love and time. I LOVE LOVE!!! I have always loved love. I will always love love!! SHOOT, my favorite holiday is Valentines (LOL). This will NEVER change!! In 2014-2016, I use to think that so many people I loved, wanted to see how far they could go before I allowed them to break me. Through being internal or out of pure unawareness, I wanted so bad to be the victim. I wanted to hold on to grudges and be so stuffed up with unforgiveness that I became stiff. I wanted everyone to hurt like I did. I wanted to see people cry in public just as they made me cry in private. EVERYONE who did not save me needed to feel the pain, but I couldn't be heartless anymore. I seeked everyone out to ask for forgiveness and cried out to God in prayer on my face EVERY night to be healed from such terrible spirit. I wanted forgiveness for the people I could not reached who I have hurt, asking for forgiveness for myself, and pleaded to God to have mercy on all of our souls, it was all apart of the timing. Time revealed to me I never knew what love was, I have never been in love, and creating my own definition of love is degrading to God who has given us the ability to have the perfect love inside of us. 2016 taught me that time/timing is everything, our best friend and more importantly I can not be broken.

In 2016, I decided not to quit. As I went through the motions, being broken, being humbled, losing pridefulness, being myself, taking the L's (slang for loses) it threw at me, loving harder than ever, forgiving, asking for forgiveness, holding my tongue, learning about my Heavenly Father, being a complete nerd and giving up the ideas of what people think about me. Hearing God whisper to me to just endure and how He loves me so, even though I am seriously a messed up individual, has been the best year of my LIFE!!! I am forever grateful!!


May, 2017 be in all of our favor. To God be the glory and victory!!

2 Chronicles 15:7
But you, be strong and do not let your hands be weak, for your work shall be rewarded!"

Isaiah 41:10
Fear not, for I am with you; Be dismayed, for I ma your God.
I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."

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